Rumor Has It

Yes, the rumors are true.  Despite being quite sure we were done with babies, we are expecting baby #5 on May 2, 2014. We were quite shocked to discover that we were expecting again.  We still aren't quite sure how that happened (yes, I do understand the birds and the bees, but really).  After everything we went through with Miles, and then my subsequent miscarriage, we felt that we just couldn't do the stress, anxiety, and emotional roller coaster of another pregnancy.  We learned yet again that Heavenly Father has a plan different from what I planned when I found out that I was pregnant the first of September.  Every day was emotionally and physically draining as I waited for my first doctor's appointment at 8 weeks.  When that day came, the doctor did an ultrasound, and there was a little baby with a strong heartbeat, measuring right on schedule.  That used to make me feel better, but this time it was nothing I hadn't seen before.  He continued to see me every 2 weeks and do an ultrasound each time, just to check measurements and reassure me, but it never seemed to help.  Our life is busy, and weeks passed quickly, but not without to constant stress and worry that something was going to go wrong.  We finally shared our news with our kids, and with friends and family, on Thanksgiving at 16 weeks pregnant.  From there we anxiously waited for our 20 week ultrasound.  We did get a sneak peek at the gender a couple of weeks early, and found we are expecting a little boy.  The kids are very excited, and they ask questions on occasion, but for the most part we all hold our breath.  We had our 20 week ultrasound with perinatology on December 20th.  That was one of the scariest things I have had to sit through.  After looking over every detail of this little guy (who again wasn't shy about showing us that indeed he is a boy), they couldn't find one thing to be concerned about.  While we still have a ways to go, and I can't shake the constant fear that something will go wrong, having that ultrasound out of the way with good results is a relief.  We pray daily that this baby will continue to grow and develop as he should, and that the coming months will pass quickly.  We haven't decided on any names yet, still one baby step at a time, but we are excited and full of hope to welcome another little Brown into the world this spring.