we do not doubt that our mothers knew it

"And they rehearsed unto me the words of their mothers, saying: We do not doubt our mothers knew it." -Alma 56:48

I mentioned that I have decided to treat this blog more like a journal. I have decided to keep it public (I don't publish the very personal entries, those will go in my personal printed version), however the things I write are the things that I want my children to read, the things I want them to know, the things I want them to know that their mother knew. Life doesn't always happen as planned, and I have no idea what waits around the corner for us, but I want to know that my children will know what is important to me, even if I am not very good at expressing it. I want them to know that they mean the world to me. Their safety, their health, and their happiness are the most important things to me. I want them to know that I love them, that I will always love them, no matter what. I want them to talk to me, to share their hopes and dreams with me. I want them to really know me, and I want to really know them. I want them to know that I love their father, and that the day I married him was the greatest day and best decision of my life. I want them to understand that that doesn't mean it's always perfect, we are both still human and we aren't perfect people (not by a longshot), but we love each other enough to rise above our imperfections. I want them to know that I love the gospel. I am still learning and growing in my knowledge and understanding of gospel principles, but I am so grateful for the gospel and the peace it brings. More than anything, I want them to know that I love the Lord and I love my Savior. I trust in the Lord, and try my hardest to know and understand and accept His will. I want them to know that I have a testimony of the power of  the atonement. I know that we can be cleansed of our imperfections, and if we try our very hardest, the Lord can help to make up what we lack. I want my children to know these things and understand them for themselves. And I want them to be able to say as the 2000 stripling warriors did that they do not doubt their mother knew it.  I want to be that kind of mother.