As we left the little hospital room the day we took the kids to hold sweet Miles, Mason asked "Mom, why when we prayed for Miles did he still die?" At the time Matt gave him an answer that I don't remember, but he has asked that same question several times since. And I don't have an answer, sometimes I myself don't really know. How do I teach them to have hope and pray for miracles when they have spent the last couple of years praying for their grandparents and their baby brother and we still lost them. How do I teach them when I don't really know? I know we do it, and I have faith that miracles happen, but I also know that we have to ultimately accept the will of the Lord, and sometimes his answer is not what we want. I am not questioning the Lord, or his infinite wisedom, I truly feel that there were small miracles through all of our recent losses that allowed us more time, and there were many tender mercies along the way, and I do feel peace through all of this that Miles served his mission on this earth and was ready to return home. But, how do I answer my sweet 5-year-old boy, when I don't really know the answer myself?
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